I do what I do because it’s what I want to do. Obviously there are reasons for these things, some better than others, but either way nothing in my life is done at random or “just because”. Sometimes it’s because it’ll help me with my career, sometimes it’s because it’ll help me stronger/faster and sometimes it’s just because it seems like it’ll be fun or cool. I’m willing to bet you’re the same way too. Maybe you think you do things just because, but if you take a step back and think about it there was a reason. I never said it had to be a good reason, but there is a reason behind every action you take on a daily basis.
If you’re one of the few who randomly landed on this page you can probably tell that I’m a little bit of a meathead. There is a reason behind my obsession with my body and getting it into what I feel is “good enough” shape. Some people already tell me I’m at that point. Well, thanks for the compliment lady (and on one or two occasions dude), but I don’t care. If I’m not satisfied that’s all the reason I need to keep pushing on until I am satisfied. These are the reasons I do what I do…
1) I’m insecure:
I’m like Jay in “The 40-year Old Virgin”, minus the skin color, plus some hair. On the outside he comes across as confident and in control of everything. On the inside he feels inferior and like he doesn’t have a handle on everything as well as he should.
2) I’m good at it:
I can lift some heavy shit. Granted I can’t compete with any of the guys over at Elite FTS, but for a safety to put up the 3rd best numbers during pre-season weight testing behind a couple of linemen, I’d say that’s a decent showing. Am I tooting my own horn here? Absolutely, this is one of the few areas in my life where I’m incredibly confident, maybe even over confident.
3) I’m always looking for the next best thing:
This goes back to never being satisfied. Making progress, i.e. deadlifting 525+ again, getting under 9% body fat, getting a girl off 3 times in an hour, are great achievements. But once you make those achievements an everyday thing they lose their appeal. I’ll feel like I can take on the world for a few days or weeks after, but soon enough my mind is obsessed with dead lifting 535+, getting under 8% and getting her off 5 times.
Why do you do what you do? Who cares if you think it’s not a good enough reason or if someone will judge you for it? People absolutely will judge you for it, and a lot of people will tell you it’s not a good enough reason to do it. Fuck them. It’s not their life; it’s not their body. If it motivates you and pushes you towards your goal, then use it. When you can finally be honest with people about your motivations I think you’ll be pretty damn surprised how many people agree with you or applaud the fact that you know exactly what you want and why you want it.
“You’re insecure? Well guess what, the rest of the world is too. Stop overestimating the competition and underestimating yourself.”